Jamli

A year ago, I have seen myself entering a thing I never thought I would be in: the world of fandom, the JamLi fandom. For those of you who does not know about , it's a loveteam from the Philippine Reality Show, Pinoy Big Brother. They are James Reid and Ann Li, respectively. Of course what got me soooo into them is the indubitable chemistry, plus they are teens struggling in this world, and so am I. I've never been in this kind of thing, it was my first time being an avid fan. So avid that I joined a contest just to be on their first get-together, saving up and telling white lies(hehe) just to see them, constantly visiting fan pages and online forums just to get updates, and unknowingly 'defending' them from people who basically hates them. I like who I've been and what everything has been since I knew them, a different world has opened up on me. Silly but it seems like my non-existent lovelife raised to the nth power by just going giggly and gaga over them. I've met so much people, fair enough that I could call them true friends, through this loveteam. Those two have bought thousands of people together, believing in the same thing and fighting for it.

And of course not all things have happy endings. But ending is a big word, and it does not exist in my vocabulary. I'd like to call this strange phase as an "obstacle" which a true JamLi Popper must pass. A lot of fans was devastated when the two started growing as humans. Growing is not necessarily bad, but for the two of them, it was, because they were growing apart, that's why we were(and some might still be) devastated. Drastically at first, and eventually, gradually. So gradual that I think they're being used to it.

So what's in store for us? Memories. A lot of it.

We're not their personal adviser, and we can't do anything but support them in any way that we possibly could... or want, because not all of us can fathom such excruciation. At least not for me because I am a selfish bitch. Yeah, you heard me. Someday(or maybe even now), eventually, I'd choose one from them. I know it will happen, no matter how many people would call me selfish for doing it. I have my own feelings, too. And no one dictates what should I feel.

But I'm still not losing hope. Nothing is impossible.